Quietness and Anxiety
Sorry I’ve been a bit quiet recently. Wedding planning has seriously ramped up as we have less than 4 months to go (eek) and The Little Geekery Company is taking up a lot of my time! We’ve had a great first week – so thank you so much to everyone for your support and orders so far! Huge robot snogs to you all!
I haven’t really talked about this on the blog since my PND post back in December, but I’ve been suffering from really horrible anxiety issues for a while now. I find myself in tears over the silliest of things, I’ve been having scary, frantic dreams, some of which have resulted in panic attacks, and just a constant feeling of dread and a knot in my stomach that I can’t seem to loosen. It’s been a bit sucky, and I’ve been a complete mess at home with poor Nick having to deal with me in tears every day.
I’ve never really thought about anxiety being something that requires treatment before. I’ve always been a terrible worrier, so I’m quite used to a certain level of worrying, but I’m beginning to wonder whether a visit to the Doctor might be on the cards. I’ve always just thought I was a bit odd, a bit of a “Sheldon Cooper” personality, but after reading Dani’s post on Social Anxiety Disorder some of the symptoms really hit home.
While we were away in the Lakes I realised that I’ve become a little disillusioned with blogging; I’m not going to BritMums Live anymore due to a wedding, but in the back of mind I was starting to wonder whether I really wanted to go. I was looking forward to meeting more of my lovely blogging friends, but everything in the blogging world seems to be about working with brands and turning yourself into a brand these days, and it’s all a bit tiring really. I am so so so grateful for all of the fabulous things I am sent to review and I do love writing this blog, but why commercialise something that was started as a personal space? I think I need to find a happy balance with it all.
Gosh, this has turned into one of those “mind dump” posts, hasn’t it? Well, I guess I felt I owed you all an explanation for my quietness. I’d love to know what you love reading on here and what direction you think I should take the blog in. I’ll be moving over to self-hosted soon(ish) and having a blog redesign, so need some ideas!
I think I’ve had enough of a ramble!
Have a great rest of the week.