Apologies for being a bit lax on my positive pregnancy posts over the past few weeks – redecorating the house and (finally) moving all our belongings has taken over life, and I’m finding it difficult to remember my own name, let alone think about giving birth in a mere 2-6 weeks…!
However, yesterday saw a change to this; an opportunity to sit and talk about labour, and discuss how I’d like it go. And it’s left me feeling positive and excited again.
Yesterday, I had my Home Birth Booking appointment with a lovely Community Midwife. I’ll be honest, it’s taken about a week of waiting by my phone for this appointment. A few times during this waiting period I’ve questioned as to why it has been so difficult to organise, and has left me wondering whether the Midwifery Team actually wanted me to have a Home Birth – did they see it as inconvenient? Was I being an awkward “Earth Mother” type in a community where the Home Birth rate is only 1-2%? Was my dream of a Home Birth a hippy-esque notion that could only be fulfilled in somewhere like my beloved Brighton? My over-thinking mind thought so, and I found myself backtracking on all of the good work I’ve been doing, and I even started reconsidering a birth in hospital.
But then the appointment happened.
We spent almost two hours chatting through the paperwork, going through any concerns etc, and carrying out the normal antenatal checks. Baby is fine – he’s engaged already and the Midwife thinks he’ll be a bit bigger than Busby was when she was born (6lb 14oz), but shouldn’t be too much bigger… (Phew! Thank goodness for the small genes on Nick’s side of the family!). The Midwife made me feel safe, feel welcome, and best of all, made me feel like I’d made the right decision choosing a Home Birth. There were a few subjects that left me a little worried, for example, the risks associated with a physiological third stage rather than a managed, but as Nick reassured me when I chatted to him after work, the Midwives have to talk through these things so I’m aware of what can happen.
The positive path continued after the Midwife left, as Nick came home with a new Hypnobirthing book for me to read from our teacher! We start our “crash course” in a couple of weeks, and I can’t wait. Everything about Hypnobirthing and Positive Birth just makes total and utter sense to me, and opening the book I came across this quote from the marvellous Ina May Gaskin:
It reminded me of the all the hard work I’ve already achieved; changing my mindset for this birth dramatically.
It also reinforced what I already knew, but had forgotten about birth: I can do this. I have no reason to be afraid.
ps If this were written via IM, I would totally add a fist pump emoticon…
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