I could be found sobbing on Nick’s shoulder a few nights ago. Why? Well, I could blame the pregnancy hormones (and I will to a certain extent) but mostly I was feeling overwhelmed. After a month of solid, continuous, relentless house renovation, whilst in my third trimester of pregnancy, whilst living away from my friends and family in unknown territory, it hit me: we’re going to have two children very shortly, and that’s a BIG deal.
Crying was cathartic; it helped me talk through a few things I’ve been worrying about, and helped me focus on what needed to be in place for the next few weeks. Our birth pool arrives next Monday, we now own enough shower curtains and plastic dust sheets to recreate our own Dexter Kill Room if needed, and our Hypnobirthing “crash course” is booked.
My Hypnobirthing book has been fantastic when I’ve been feeling unsure or scared. Reading and rereading the birth affirmations really does help, and remembering that my body is designed to do this, visualising the calmness of Peppercorn’s impending birth, and trying to keep the fearful hormones at bay has been wonderful for keeping me feeling positive and strong:
Let’s hope I can continue to apply all of this when I’m giving birth!
Nominations for the MAD Blog Awards are still open until Wednesday 27th May 2015, and I would love a cheeky vote in the Best Pregnancy Blog category (pretty please)! Just click the button below to nominate, and I shall repay your kindness and generosity in adorable newborn photos once Peppercorn has arrived!