Gosh, the last week has certainly been interesting! We’ve had a few “will he/won’t he arrive?” moments and, according to the Midwife, Peppercorn’s entrance into the world is imminent. I’ve definitely been feeling like this pregnancy is coming to an end; I’m super slow now, and utterly exhausted. I have tiny bursts of nesting energy every few hours, and always end up doing too much and scolding myself as am left feeling like I’ve been hit by a bus. I’ve also been feeling very crampy, with period-pain-esque uncomfortableness, which is a sure sign that birth isn’t too far away now.
With this in mind, I’ve been quite good at realising my limits (well, other than during the nesting energy spurts) and have been trying to rest as much as possible. My Hypnobirthing books have served as good reminders that I should be preserving my energy for the birth, and although I’m starting to feel a little housebound at times, the resting is helping me relax more and focus on the journey ahead. A modern confinement… with a Toddler! Thank goodness she has so many books and toys that have been packed away for seven months that she’d forgotten about!
I’ll admit that I’ve started to feel quite nervous over the past week too. Memories from Busby’s birth keep trying to enter my mind when I think about birthing her brother… a few of them haven’t been so positive, so I’ve been working hard to try and remain in a positive place. Nick has been fantastic; coaching me through the times when I’m obviously distressed, and reminding me that Peppercorn’s birth is the opportunity for the birth that I want: it will be different this time. For all of us. I love this quote from Sheila Kitzinger, and thought it was apt for this week’s positive inspiration:
As well as the nervousness, I am feeling excited. Our birth pool was delivered last weekend, and I’m very much looking forward to getting in, having a beautiful birth and meeting our little man!