Sunday 13th May 2018
I turn 11 weeks today! Bun is the size of a brussels sprout, which is exactly what I want to munch on right now… dipped in melted camembert. Sadly they’re rather out of season!
I was right in my prediction – I definitely over did it yesterday, and consequently slept until gone 9am this morning and then had another nap this afternoon. Other than leaving bed to make myself a bacon sandwich and have a quick tidy, I’ve spent the rest of the day in bed. I am SO tired.
However, in happier news, my nausea is not here today AND I can drink water again without it offending my mouth so much that I’m sick! This is happy news, although a little voice in my head is niggling away saying “Yes, but your nausea stopped around this time with your lost baby last year, so don’t be too happy.” Sigh.
Tuesday 15th May 2018
I’ve given myself the day off! It’s 8am, Nick has taken the children to nursery and school, I’ve put a load of laundry on (I’m not sure you can ever have the day off from laundry as a parent?) and I’m about to settle down with the last couple of episodes of ‘The Letdown’ and hopefully fall back to sleep!
I had so much energy yesterday morning, so I hoovered the whole house. I felt shattered by the evening, but I’m so glad my energy is gradually returning.
No real cravings so far this week other than wanting to consume copious amounts of dairy (see: cheese) still… Maybe my body is crying out for calcium after the months of me trying to cut down on it?
I feel SO excited today about Bun! And Bun joining our crazy clan! I can’t wait to snuggle them. I can’t wait for Christmas this year, where he or she will be gazing at the lights and stocking opening in our bed will be chaotic and even more busy with another (albeit, tiny) body to witness the joy.
Wednesday 16th May 2018
I think I was a bit preemptive about the nausea and sickness going… Feeling horrific today and I have lots to do. Hopefully keeping busy will help!
Thursday 17th May 2018
I have been so emotional today; I woke up feeling desperately sad. I realised that it was around this gestation that I started bleeding, and then had the scan to tell us that our baby had stopped growing. I’ve been having cramps all day and I feel so worried and panicky that we’re going to go to our scan next week and be told that there is no heartbeat. I need to stop worrying and trust my body – they’re probably just stretching cramps and I’ve felt little flutterings, so I’m sure Bun is ok in there. I just want to know for sure.