Two weeks to wait.
Not moving; standing still.
Seeing whether you’ll leave naturally,
Or via op, or via pill.
We should have been announcing.
Hearts filled with total glee.
But instead, I sit here sad and quiet,
With a cup of luke-warm tea.
I turned 12 weeks pregnant,
A small bleed? We went in…
“Surely it’s just stretching?” I thought,
My mind began to spin.
Sam Smith on the radio.
Singing about ‘goodbyes’.
“A bad omen?” I wonder.
Praying hard, I close my eyes.
Two different types of ultrasound,
And neither show good news.
The baby stopped developing,
And I am so confused.
I’ve still been feeling nauseous?!
My bump has still been growing?!
I’ve still been craving crazy food?!
How did it stop without me knowing?!
“The hormones”, the kind Nurse tells me.
“That’s why you still feel sick.”
Then she explains lots of things to us,
None of which stick.
I can’t move forward yet,
I still don’t understand.
Six months of trying for you,
This is not the ending we had planned.
As I sit here writing this poem,
My mind is so confused.
One moment I was pregnant,
And now my heart feels bruised.
Feeling useless waiting.
All I can do is cry.
We already loved you so much;
I don’t want to say goodbye.
Oh Hannah, I am so so sorry. Sending big hugs xx
Oh Hannah I’m so sorry, utterly heartbreaking. Sending you so much love and hugs. xx
Sending you all the love my darling lady, I’m so sorry for your heartbreak. Xx
I’m so very sorry Hannah, I hope the next few days and weeks are gentle on you xx
I’m so sorry Hannah, sending all my love x x x
So sorry to hear your sad news. Your poem is raw, emotional and beautifully written. Xx
Oh Hannah darling I’m so very sorry for your loss. Give yourself time to grieve and look after yourself. Sending so much love xxxxxx
Oh Hannah, I’m so sorry, I had no idea. Sending so much love and lots of hugs xxx
I’m so very sorry to hear this. Lovely words, you have such a beautiful way of expressing your grief. Thinking of you all xxx
I am so sorry!
Sending love and hugs x
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Oh god Hannah I’m so sorry. Sending you all my love sweetheart xx
Such a beautiful poem for a heartbreaking situation. Wishing you plenty of love and hugs at this difficult time ❤
I’m so sorry Hannah, sending all of the love
So sorry to read this lovely. Thinking of you all x
Oh Hannah, i’m sending you so much love. I wish you didn’t have to go through such heartbreak. A missed miscarriage is so confusing. It makes no sense. And it’s so cruel. Lots of love and hugs Lucy xxxx
Oh Hannah you poor thing. You are not alone. Big hugs to you all xx
Lots of love xx
I’m so so sorry Hannah. Sending you all lots of love and I wish I could give you a hug xx
So sorry Hannah. Sending you lots of love x
I am so sorry lovely, sending you so much love xxx
So sorry to hear this Hannah. Sending lots of love to you all. Big hugs xxx
I’m so sorry Hannah, sending love x
Sending you a hug today. It is such confusing and heart-breaking time. I truly wish you were not going through this. Thank you for your bravery to share. I lost a little one at 17 weeks so I understand how the 12 week mark is moment of thinking maybe it will be okay and then the shock it is not. BIG HUG!
So sorry Hannah much love xxxx
Oh Hannah I am so sorry huni, there really are no other words except sending lots of love and hugs your way xxx
Oh sweet person, I am so so sorry you are going through this. I can relate to your poem. Lots of love xxx
It’s hard to go through. I’ve had 2 (one at 10 weeks and one at 12 weeks). It’s never easy. You’re not alone even if you feel alone. I just passed the due date for my most recent miscarriage (12 week one) and it’s a hard day too. Sending love!
I am so very sorry. The emptiness is just awful.